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Published on 11/11,2007

Zima. Mrzim zimu. Volela bih da mogu ko medved da je prespavam i da se probudim u prolece ili da imam toliko para da zimi mogu da odem u toplije krajeve i da se vratim za par meseci kada otopli. Moje puste zelje. Niti sam medved, niti imam toliko para. Raspolozenje mi je na minimumu. Mrzim taj osecaj, a znate zbog cega? Zato sto kada god padnem u depresiju i melanholicno stanje pocnem da preispitujem svoj zivot i odluke koje sam donosila. Milion pitanja, zasto, zbog cega, kako sam mogla to da dopustim?! Ne mogu da kazem da sam imala los zivot, cak sto vise bio je veoma zanimljiv, a ja eto opet u ovim trenucima moje mrznje prema samoj sebi osecam se prazno, ko da sam sama na ovom svetu. Sto je naj smesnije od svega uopste nisam sama, imam gomilu familije oko sebe, dosta prijatelja, dosta nazovi prijatelja. Obozavam moju familiju. Mi smo kao neka italijanska ili grcka familija, stalno se svadjamo, svako mora da zna o svemu i o svakome, svako osudjuje svakoga, moraju da se znaju svi tracevi, a ipak niko se ne mesa nikome u zivot i uvek smo tu da pomognemo jedni drugima. Ja sam dete razvedenih roditelja. Nisam jedinica imam i sestru koja je ne pune dve godine mladja od mene. Moja sestra i ja nikada nismo osetile razvod nasih roditelja, tako da ne mogu da kazem da vucem neke traume iz detinjstva i da u ovim trenucima osecaja samoce krivim moje roditelje. Imam divne roditelje, po malo blesave, ali divne.Uvek su tu za mene i moju sestru. Moja sestra, moja sestra je jedno jako tvrdoglavo stvorenje, na izgled jako cvrsta osoba, puna samopouzdanja, kada je upoznate mislite da nju nista ne moze da povredi, a ustvari je jako osetljivo stvorenje. Povredjuju je i naj manje sitnice, mada to tesko priznaje, al onaj ko je stvarno zna to moze da uvidi, dok ja, ja sam po nekada i previse flegma. Kako sebe opisati, a da i vi i ja ne pomislite da sam narcis? Ja? Ko sam ja? Ja sam osoba koja nema pojma sta hoce od zivota, koja nikada ne planira unapred, drugim recima zivim od danas do sutra. Znam da budem u nekim trenucima vrlo hladna, mada se retko kada javljaju ti trenuci. Flegma? To sam vec pomenula. Porodica me smatra osobom kojoj na jedno uvo udje, na drugo izadje, koja radi samo ono sto joj u tom trenutku prija, a dal je to bas tako? Zasto da teram sebe da uradim nesto sto tog trenutka ne zelim? Naravno da za neke stvari ne mozes da biras trenutak kada ces ih uraditi, al za neke mozes. Evo na primer sada, sada mi je doslo da tipkam o ovome i da eto po prvi put u zivotu napravim blog i ako nemam pojma kako se to radi. Kad pomenem tipkanje, mislim na tipkanje po tastaturi, nisam luda da uzmem olovku u ruke i da pisem. Ko to jos radi? Hvala Bogu pa su izmislili ovo cudo koje zovu kompjuter. Sa njim je svet mnogo lepsi. Mozda sutra necu zeleti da ovo radim i mozda narednih par godina necu prici ovom blogu sto se trenutno nalazi na mom monitoru, a ko zna, mozda i pozelim da zavrsim ovo sto sam pocela, pa sam sebe zadivim svojom inspiracijom i voljom da istrajem u ovom do kraja. Ko zna? Ja sigurno ne, a vi jos manje. Sto se tice moje inspiracije ona je uvek prisutna. Ja sam osoba koja voli puno da prica i koja uvek ima sta da kaze. Retko kada cutim i obicno kazem sve sta mislim. Mozda to i nije bas dobro, jer po nekada u nekim situacijama covek treba da precuti neke stvari, al ja i da resim da precutim moje lice, a pogotovo oci bi rekle ono sto stvarno mislim. Nikada nisam znala da sakrijem ono sto mislim. Mada iskreno, bas me briga dal ce neko da se naljuti zbog mog misljenja il ne, ne volim da krijem stvari. Ko me voli i ko me zna, zna kakva sam osoba i da nikada onim sto sam rekla nisam zelela da povredim nekoga. Jednostavno to je moje misljenje i ne zelim da ga menjam da nekoga ne bi povredila, niti trazim da neko promeni misljenje o nekoj stvari zato sto neko drugi to ne misli. Osobe su razlicite i svako ima pravo na svoju egzistenciju. Isto tako smatram da osoba treba da bude ono sto jeste, bez maski i bez foliranja, jer mislim da sve te lazi i lazna predstavljanja mogu da ti zakomplikuju zivot i mislim da ce drugi ljudi vise da te cene zbog onoga sto stvarno jesi. Svaka laz i svaka maska kad tad padne i sta onda?! Onda te nikada vise nece ceniti neki ljudi, pogotovo oni do kojih ti je stalo. Zato ljudi budite ono sto jeste. Eto toliko od mene za moj prvi put, a i vas. Smile


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